Thursday, December 26, 2013

Harmful effects of porn addiction

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By Breaker:
I was charged and convicted of possession of child porn in 2009. Now I may be wasting my time but, I figured I can at least try to make some people understand as to why I did it and shed a little light on the harmful effects of porn addiction. I am not blaming anyone I made the mistake I did the time.

When I was little I had a really hard childhood with a retired marine as a father who had a big mouth and who had self image problems of his own. So enough said he took his problems out on us with verbal, emotional and rarely physical abuse. Well when you are this young you start to develop in one of two ways. One: the aggressive person who is looking for a fight and wants to hurt you cause he is hurting.Two: you curl into a fetal position and try to find some way to escape reality and that was me. My escape was anime, well as the years went on I dove deeper into anime until I learned of Hentai or animated porn. Now anyone who has seen this knows that there is no limit to hentai if you can think it it can be done. I have seen every genre of hentai known to man I think. Well my fascination became addiction.

Now this where things started to go down hill. With porn addiction you are constantly searching for something different something new and in the process you become desensitized to it. Well I came across something new something...taboo. It was Lolicon or under-aged animated porn. My father knew I was looking at it but, he did not seem to care, it was not until I told him about me being put in jail did he say and I quote "I knew this was coming" I have not spoken to him since no support no nothing. Well as I got older and my knowledge of the internet grew I learned of something call File Sharing, like Torrenting. Well this opened my world to even better porn cause it was free and it was real not that fake crap you see on pay sites. Well as I said too much porn makes you view things "that most people would vomit at" and not care. That is where I got my first look at real child porn. Long story short I got caught, convicted and now I am screwed royally side ways without lube. To anyone watching this make sure your kids don't look at this stuff it f**** with your mind.

I can't really complain I live in a state that does not have housing restrictions for me, I am only tier one which means I will be off the registry in 12 more years. I live with my mother with a very nice support group. It honestly is the mental games being a SO that get me down.


6 comments :

Guest said...

When a person sells drugs to a child that child's life and body is seriously endangered. When a person looks at the picture of a naked child the child is not even aware of it. Parents, if they desire and are peculiar can look at their naked child 24 hours a day 7 days a week and it is not a crime. I do not understand why it is rational for our judicial system to fill prisons with people who look at child pornography. I am a grandfather and do not have a desire to look at naked human children. I favor criminalizing the production of child pornography.

Mark said...

"I do not understand why it is rational for our judicial system to fill prisons with people who look at child pornography." Because it violates interstate commerce laws, and these crimes make lots of $$$$$$$$$ for the government. Just like drug laws.

Matt said...

If you had known that File-Sharing is swarming with police looking to catch people who download this stuff, you probably wouldn't have done it. Of course the feds could easily remove the content but instead they are the ones who actually put it there hoping people will download it so they can arrest them. The police are the biggest distributors of child porn on the net.

NJ45143112 said...

Just a thought but we DID all make a mistake...
The problem is that we didn't recognize that mistake nor have anybody to tell us or show us until it was too late...
The other mistake was believing that we live in a FREE society where human rights are valued. This looked good on paper but it has never been true!
If it had been true, then empathy would be part of the law and assistance could be rendered instead of destroying families, undermining the economy and bilking millions of taxpayer dollars each year to fill prisons with ordinary people...
Sieg Heil, everyone!

Matt said...

Well by now everyone should know that child porn is highly illegal. Those who have been caught serve as lessons to those who are paying attention. Yes I realize you made a mistake and I feel sorry for you and believe these laws and the police tactics to catch people are unethical and stupid, but the reality is no one is going to save you, you have to try to save yourself.



I am not a registered sex offender but I do have pedophilia. I remain celibate and do not look at porn. I have watched others with less self-control fall for the bait of law enforcement predators and learned from their mistakes. I'm still trying to get it through to others like me that tor is not safe, nothing is. But even when you tell people this, many do not listen. This is mostly due, I think, to cockiness.

NJ45143112 said...

Pride is a bitch...
Look in Proverbs and you'll find quite a few mentions of the woman who can ruin your life...
In any case, I commend you for your self control but you are right in stating that "cockiness" or, as I put it, "pride" simply doesn't allow many to accept that production, distribution or even collection of material that has been designated as illegal by the feds is highly dangerous...
However, the length and breadth of those items that are considered illegal are not fixed and are often open to interpretation. The public never sees the material, the lawyers are subject to their own bias and the prosecutors drool over the opportunity to through another monster behind bars. This can easily be pictures taken on a family outing or to a nudist beach or...
There is no limit to the inhumanity that our legislators are willing to inflict since they never care to look at the damage they cause. Sure that door swings both ways since many who collect and distribute child porn never think about those in the images...
I was fortunate never to get into that world but was still busted for the more benign sort of pornography. That sort that wasn't intended to be erotic. However, the trail led to my door and they saw it for what they wanted...
Satan controlled the circumstances but God made sure it worked for good in me. I still have a few years yet before I start to see what I can do with what I've learned but some of the results are already showing...
I still curse those who have no moral center and think them selves better since they are higher up the food chain and think they can dictate morals for the rest. I shouldn't, but I'm only human...
In any case, I can still wish one and all a better and more prosperous new year! It's the year of the Horse, the Chinese have said, and it's likely a more positive sign than the Snake was...
Hope so...